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AisHitEru

 

Menunggu sesuatu yang sangat menyebalkan bagiku
saat ku harus bersabar dan trus bersabar
menantikan kehadiran dirimu
entah sampai kapan aku harus menunggu
sesuatu yang sangat sulit tuk kujalani
hidup dalam kesendirian sepi tanpamu
kadang kuberpikir cari penggantimu
saat kau jauh disana
ooo…

Gelisah sesaat saja tiada kabarmu kucuriga
entah penantianku takkan sia-sia
dan berikan satu jawaban pasti
entah sampai kapan aku harus bertahan
saat kau jauh disana rasa cemburu
merasuk kedalam pikiranku melayang
tak tentu arah tentang dirimu
apakah sama yang kau rasakan

walau raga kita terpisah jauh
namun hati kita selalu dekat
bila kau rindu pejamkan matamu
dan rasakan a a a aku
kekuatan cinta kita takkan pernah rapuh
terhapus ruang dan waktu
percayakan kesetiaan ini
akan tulus a a ai aishiteru

hapus sendiri pikiran melayang terbang
perasaan resah gelisah
jalani kenyataan hidup tanpa gairah
o...uo
banyak segala misi dan ambisimu
akhiri semuanya cukup sampai disini
dan buktikan pengorbanan cintamu untukku
kumohon kau kembali

when i become lazy superwoman

FINAL EXAM SEM 2!!!!!! sudah bermula....arggghhhh tension bebeno la...2 paper dah lepas..pas nie paper bi pulak...hmmm pas2 subjek yg akan kill me ke tali hayat terakhir...ACCOUNTING, MICROECONOMICS & BUSINESS MATHEMATICS....HUH...mcm mne nie...da la akaun mmg aq xbole nk catch up..aq pon xtau kenapa mmg aq mls sgt n + xsuke subjek akaun nie...sgt2 memeningkan kepala otak aq...mmg r kan mne ade benda yg senang dalam dunia nie...hehehe ^_^


Hope aq bole buat...yeahhhh aja aja fighting...caiyok3...berusaha selagi mampu...usaha tangga kejayaan...

BELIEVE YOU CAN DO IT =)

operation + surgery....grrrrrrrr!!!!

  

17 october 2009..the date that i will never forget..the historic date for me..at Hospital Sultan Ismail, Johor Bharu i placed for further treatment..i go to HSI on 16 october..until i at HSI i went to medical check by a specialist of the nose, ears and mouth..after inspection, the doctor found a lump of pus found at the bottom of my ears..after getting approval to conduct the surgery, doctors prescribe the date of my surgery the next day..the sorts of things that i feel..nervous,scared, and so on..

the day of surgery, 17 october, saturday, at 10.00 a.m, i was brought into the operating room..but do not know why this time I could not feel anything..not afraid..but not enjoy of cause..when i lay in bed surgical and surgical lights bright lights in my face..i am not able to say anything else except pray that the surgery went well..

surgery started when i was sedated by the anesthesia specialist..after the doctor inserts a camera through my nose wire. doctors should not be put through the mouth because my mouth will not open at that time..despite being sedated, but pain when the camera can still be felt..and the pain that i felt God only knows..but a minute later i went unconscious..maybe the effects of anesthesia..

3 hours, then i realized..and my doctor said surgery did not take too much time just an hour and a half alone..the doctor told me, during surgery, after doctors had cut a little squirt pus..i hear it i chuckle..hehehe..after surgery, i had to admission and care under a specialist doctor. My week-long hospital. tired and bored. and the most i do not like about the hospital is food..very uncomfortable and not tasty..bargaining and the same menu every day..hehehe..i do not want to stay in the hospital again this past..hehe..so i'll keep my health as best as possible so as not to enter the hospital again..let this be the first and last....huhuhu =)
and most depressing of the year..i had to celebrate my birthday in the hospital..
no friends, no cake = (
 

 

FoRuM =)

 

MENTAL BLOCK...gggrrrrrrrrr

wh0 am i

 

I sit in the terrace, gazing at the starry sky,  and think ab0ut the answer t0 the questi0n, "Wh0 am i??" I am a girl wh0 wants to be young forever,  but i'm a girl wh0 als0 wants t0 gr0w up and be some0ne that every0ne will remember I'm a girl who wants t0 stay in the pr0tected w0rld my parents have built f0r me but i'm als0 a girl wh0 wants t0 t0uch the sky and break free I want t0 be happy and dance in the rain but i als0 wanna cry f0r the unf0rtunate and feel their pain I want t0 be wise and g0 t0wards the sun ray but i als0 want t0 be a f0ol, trust my heart and g0 the 0ther way I'm a girl wh0 always wants her life t0 g0 t0wards light but i'm als0 a girl wh0 wants t0 be able t0 make it thr0ugh the night. I always want t0 be right, win every race but i als0 want t0 be able t0 l0se and accept it with grace I'm a girl wh0 always wants t0 g0 up, make ends meet but i'm als0 a girl wh0 wants t0 be able t0 fall d0wn and have the c0urage t0 get back 0n my feet Wh0 am I? What kind of a human being? I'm right, i'm wrong, i'm everything

in my dream

 

i can't quite remember

my dreams last night

0nly thing i kn0w f0r sure

it's that u were there t0 h0ld me tight

things were kinda dark, mixed n c0nfused

i can't quite remember it all

but i remember u

i was kinda dazed, crazed, l0st

but i dream 0f u n u were there

u had me in y0ur arms

u did care

i had a dream 

i can 0nly remember

u were there...in my dreams

"budak pandai"

 

Di suatu petang yg semp0i2 bahasa...(haha ta leh blaa)...

Di sebuah tmpt yg digelar Dewan Kutub Utara...

Semasa Madam Sizuka sedang bz melecturerkan student2 nye...

 di suatu sudut yg plg jauh di kutub itu (cehh) n0bita & giant pon duduk..

a few minutes....tibe2.........

n0bita : xpe...budak pandai xyah bwk buku g class pon xpe..

lengang2 bwk henf0n jewp..

giant : @#$%^&*!?<>

*a few minutes

sambil2 n0bita mencari2 khazanah berharga di dlm beg nye..

n lastly n0bita "mengaru-garu" telinganya..

giant : xpe..budak pandai xyah penat2 dgr lecturer kt dpn..

sedap2 dgr lagu jewp kt belkg..

n0bita : ??????????????

*sedang lecturer bz di hdpn

n0bita : gap0 ny0 la madam sizuka b0be kt dpn tuhh...

aq dah la xpahe se pon dye 0yak gap0....hmmm

madam sizuka : awk kena tulis yew..awk xbole dgr jewp..

 n xsemene-mene tetibe terdgr satu suara aneh berkata sesuatu..

giant : emm xpe..budak pandai xyah tulis pon xpe..

semua dah scan msuk dlm 0tak..

n0bita : buzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

*after 2 h0ur

otw balek ke bilik..

giant : heyyy suni0.. cer tgok 2...

n0bita : (dlm hati) ape pndang2??huh

suni0 : b0 b0 la tuhh..dah lmbat dah...ade class lg pas nie..

giant : emm xpe..budak pndai dtg class lmbat pon xpe..

nobita : @@@@@@@

*after a few minutes

giant : pakai stoking ke mlm nie??

n0bita : emm xpe..budak pandai xyah pakai st0king pon xpe..

dah kebal dah..

giant : ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

*emmmm sian n0bita di buli 0leh makhluk berwarna pink...

mane la si doreman xde pon nk back up n0bita..

2 vs 1...c0nfirm la kalah si n0bita tuhhh..

finally...dah bagai pecah perut nk ketawa...

gelak sampai ke dlm biik air coz teringat kata2 si makhluk pink tuhh...

(memang sengal bet0l)hahahaha

habis hilang semua ilmu td (ade kew??haha) gara2 si makhluk pink..

emm xpe..dye budak pandai..klu ilmu 2 fly away dye b0le tgkap blek..

m0ral ~

f0kus la time lecturer b0be kt dpn tuhh even xphm sekali pon 0k..

jadi la seperti n0bita...jgn jd seperti giant...

ehhh silap...

jadilah seperti giant..jgn jd seperti n0bita..

ehhh nope2...dua2 xleh pkai..hahaha...

jadi lah diri sendiri...

caiy0ookk maju kan diri anda...lakukan perubahan...

s0metimes @_@

 

S0metimes we need t0 :

st0p analyzing the past

st0p planning the future

st0p trying t0 figure 0ut precisely fr0m we fell

st0p deciding with 0ur mind what we want 0ur heart t0 feel

S0metimes we just have t0 g0 with

"whatever happens...happens"

S0metimes everything will all make perfect sense

s0 f0r n0w,

laugh at the c0nfusion

smile through the tears and

keep reminding y0urself

that everything happens f0r a reas0n..

NEVER..

 

Never say i l0ve u..if u really d0n't care

Never talk ab0ut feelings..if they aren't really there

Never hold my hand..if u're going t0 break my heart

Never say u're g0ing t0..if u d0n't plan t0 start

Never l0ok me in the eye..if all u d0 is lie

Never say hell0..if u really mean g0odbye

if u really mean f0rever..then say u'll try

Never say f0rever..coz f0rever makes u cry..

T0 l0ve is n0thing

T0 be l0ved is s0mething

T0 love and be l0ved is everything..

T0 l0ve s0me0ne deeply gives u strength

Being l0ved by s0me0ne deeply gives u courage..

 

f0rget!!!

 

F0rget her name, f0rget her face

Her warm embrace

Forget the l0ve that u 0nce knew

Remember she has s0me0ne new

F0rget her when they played y0ur s0ng

Remember when u cried all night l0ng

F0rget h0w cl0sed u 0nce were

Remember she has ch0sen his

F0rget h0w u mem0rized her walk

F0rget the way she used t0 talk

F0rget the things she used t0 say

Remember she has g0ne away

F0rget her laugh and f0rget her smile

F0rget the way she held u tight

Remember she's with his t0night

F0rget the time that went s0 fast

F0rget the l0ve that m0ved, it's past

Remember u and she never can t0gether..

we just can be a friend..

I l0ve u en0ugh t0 fight f0r u, c0mpr0mise f0r u and

sacrifice myself f0r u if need be..

Enough t0 miss u incredibly when we're apart,

 n0 matter what length 0f time it's f0r

and regardless 0f the distance..

Enough t0 believe in 0ur relati0nship,

t0 stand by it thr0ugh the w0rse 0f time,

t0 have faith in 0ur strength as a c0uple

and t0 never give up 0n us..

En0ugh t0 spend the rest 0f my life with u,

be there f0r u when u need 0r want an never,

ever want t0 leave u 0r live with0ut u..

That is the true seas0n 0f l0ve,

when we believe thet we al0ne can l0ve,

that n0 0ne c0uld ever have l0ved s0 bef0re us,

and that n0 0ne will l0ve in the same way after us..

wh0 care ab0ut ur life??

 

I believe..

That 0ur backgr0und and circumferences

may have influence wh0 we are,

but we are resp0nsible f0r wh0 we b0c0me..

I can't predict the future,

I can't change the past,

I have just the present m0ment,

I must treat it as my fast..

In 0ur life :

with0ut hum0r, life is sucks

with0ut courage, life is hard

with0ut l0ve, life is h0peless

with0ut friend, life is imp0sible

Pe0ple spend a lifetime searching

 f0r happiness l0oking f0r peace,

They chase idle dreams, addictions, religions,

even 0ther pe0ple,

h0ping t0 fill the emptiness that plagues them..

The irony is the 0nly place they ever

needed t0 search was within..

U CAN CH00SE UR 0WN LIFE

 

D0 what makes u happy

be with makes u smile

laugh as much as u can

and l0ve as l0ng as u live..

F0r everything u have mixed,

u have gained s0mething else..

and f0r everything u gain,

u lose s0mething else..

U can't d0 anything ab0ut the length 0f y0ur life

but u can d0 s0mething ab0ut its width and depth..

it's ab0ut y0ur 0utl0ok, t0wards life..

U can either regret 0r rej0ice..

If 0ne Day

 

If 0ne day u fell life crying

call me..i d0n't pr0mise

that i will make u laugh

but i can cry with u

If 0ne day u want t0 run away

don't be afraid t0 call me..i don't pr0mise

t0 ask u t0 st0p..

but i can run with u

If 0ne day u d0n't want t0 listen t0 nym0re

call me..i promise t0 be there f0r u

and i promise t0 be very quite

but..if 0ne day u call me

and there n0 answer

c0me fast t0 see me

perhaps i need u...

BE HAPPY =)

 

Dream as if y0u'll live f0rever,

Live as if y0u'll die t0day

Life is t0o short t0 wake up in the m0rning with regrets

S0 l0ve the pe0ple wh0 treat u right,

and f0rget ab0ut the 0ne's wh0 don't and 

believe that everything  happens f0r a reas0n..

If u get a chance. take it..

If it changes y0ur life, let it..

n0b0dy said it w0uld be easy, 

they just promised it w0uld be worth it..

When i was 10 years old,

my m0m always t0ld me that HAPPINESS was the KEY t0 life..

When i went t0 sch0ol,

they asked me what i wanted t0 be when i grew up..

I wr0te d0wn "HAPPY"..

They t0ld me i didn't understand the questi0n and

 i told them they didn't understand life...

Being HAPPY d0esn't mean everything perfect..

It means taht u decided

t0 lo0k bey0nd the imperfecti0ns...

NOTHING IS PERFECT :(

 

I'm not a perfect girl

My hair d0esn't always stay in place

and i spill things a l0t..

I'm pretty clumsy and c0metimes

i have a br0ken heart my friends

and i s0metimes fight and maybe

s0me days n0thing g0es right,

but when i think ab0ut it and

take a step back i remember

h0w amazing life truly is and

that maybe, just maybe i like being unperfect..

Mistake are a part 0f being human..

Appreciate y0ur mistakes f0r what the are,

precious life lessons that can 0nly be learned the hard way..

S0metimes it's the smallest decissi0ns that can change y0ur life f0rever..

Courage d0es n0t always r0ar

s0metimes c0urage is the quiet v0ice

at the end 0f the day saying

I WILL TRY AGAIN TOMORROW..

t0 Daddy with l0ve Said bin Abd Hamid

t0 her the name 0f father was an0ther name t0 l0ve

 

 

     S0me things will always be in style

G0od s0lid things like h0mesty, and trust and caring ab0ut pe0ple..

     Its qualities like these that keep us aware 0f wh0 we are

And what we can give t0 life..

     Its qualities like these, daddy, that you're taught me t0 value

Through y0ur influence, y0ur example and y0ur l0ve..
    It has made me l0ve u very much
And has made me very proud t0 have u f0r my daddy..

     Dad, f0r all th0se times, I left it unsaid
                        THANK Y0U..
       Thanks f0r being there f0r me 
           f0r showing me the way
          f0r being patient with me
    even when i made it difficult f0r u
           f0r believing in me and
        encouraging me t0 dream
      and being such an inspiring 
            presence in my life..

LIVE LIKE A WHEEL

understand the purpose of this

Life c0me with n0 guarantees, n0 times outs, n0 sec0nd chances..
U just have t0 live life t0 the fullest, laugh as must as u can..
Spend all y0ur m0ney, tell s0me0ne what they mean t0 u,
tell s0me0ne 0ff, speak 0ut, dance in the p0uring rain,h0ld s0me0ne hand, 
c0mf0rt a friend, fall asleep watching the sun c0me up, stay up late,
be flirt, smile until y0ur face hurt, d0n't be afraid t0 take chances
0r fall in l0ve...and m0st 0f all live in the m0ment because 
every sec0nd u spend angry 0r upset is a sec0nd 0f 
happiness u can never get back.... =) 

4 S0ME1 :(

As i stand here with u the fear

i always knew that u w0uld be there

thr0ugh thick, and thin g0od times,

and bad u were the  best friends,

really ever had i c0me t0 u

with tr0uble with the pain and sympathy..

I had but i realize that i can't because

u n0 l0nger here with me..

U w0uld brighten up my with a beautiful

smile 0n y0ur face, u were always happy

whatever u went thr0ugh..

If i c0uld of t0ld u my last w0rds

i w0uld tell u I l0ve u and

i am s0rry f0r th0se last w0rds i'd

sp0ken t0 u..

U were s0mething great a i kn0w

if i had s0mething t0 talk ab0ut 

i w0uld always c0me t0 u..

U will always be in my heart 

and mem0rise..

And the best friends f0rever...